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this dick ain't free
04:06
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Oh, I'm in love with the world, why don't you get that?
I thought I made you feel the same but instead you fall back
Put my picture in your frame hang it in your closet
When you think you won the game but you merely paused it
Woah
You're in love with yourself why don't I get that?
And you're crazier than hell and you're blind as a bat
You will call me Oreo cuz I can't see the grey bit
I will call you Rodeo cuz you're full of bullshit and woah
Woah
You've been searching for a neck you can sink your teeth in
Someone that you can suck dry til' their barely breathin'
Then you'll buy a brand new dress that you'll gladly grieve in
When you think you passed the test but I caught you cheatin' so no
No
I admit that I write songs 'cause I'm bad at coping
But it beats smoking the bong, taking pills, and hoping
For the sun to shine on you when you sit inside, babe
I'd say go take a hike but instead I should say grow old
Grow Old
Alone
Grow old
Alone
For I'm in love with the world and I finally get that
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don't kill yourself
04:28
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I've come too far to quit so damn soon, to give up my ghost
The fire consumes my heart seemingly out of the blue
But who crashed my car? The driver was you
It is not too late, friend
It is not too late, it's never too late, yeah
I remember every chance I threw away
A wastepaper basket filled up with your name can't stay
I finally figured you out but I can't take back the words from my mouth
It is not okay, pal
It is not okay and you're never to blame, dude
You had my back but you took out your blade
And you carved up my spine into formalities and praise
I guess that I can't have nice things but neither can you
My conscience is clean
Like the knife you used to carve out my sad and sorry spine, boo
You can "lie" here for a while but you can't trust my mind I will wreck you this time
I can't be your friend if you don't let me in
I can be your help
Please don't kill yourself
If not for you then for me, please
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white lighter
02:19
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I cut my demon down but I failed to purge it
For I lacked the courage to stare it in the eyes
But soon I found that I was fantasizing blindly
I did not take kindly to being ostracized away
Away, I sent the pain away
I pushed it down the street and threw it in the fire
Away, away, you can no longer stay
You're lucky as the stain on my white lighter
Away, away, I sent the pain away
I pushed it down the street and threw it in the fire
Away, away, you can no longer stay
You're lucky as the stain on my white lighter
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affordable wealthcare
04:32
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I bet the grass grew back
I bet the grass is greener when your strong demeanor is intact
I bet you burnt the bridge that you were standing on
And then you broke your back
For everyone you know you live your life for show
And every chance you'll blow
I bet it feels whack
I bet your life's on track cuz the grass grew back
Please disregard the former
The lie was fake, I made it up, it wasn't hard
That's your mistake: you trusted me
Please disregard
You picked me up, you gave me trust
And I will shut you down
My heart is cold and not it's getting any warmer
Please disregard the former
I bet your boat just sank while you were somewhere hiding
And if you ever find me you'll have years to thank
I bet you think you're right
But you know deep inside you fell for your own prank
And as you're drowning down
I bet you plug the holes with pieces of your soul
You're running out of air
And I can hardly care that your boat just sank
Please disregard the former
The lie was fake, I made it up, it wasn't hard
That's your mistake: you trusted me
Please disregard
You picked me up, you gave me trust
And I will shut you down
My heart is cold and not it's getting any warmer
Please disregard the former
I bet my voice draws blood
I bet I'm wrong as hell
I bet I'm right as well
I bet that you can't tell
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swim in the snow
05:29
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It's the clove of seasons and my heart is burning
My chest is churning as the wind bites my skin
I am floating onward through the wind and weather
I have come untethered
I have lost my anchor
I let it sink in the sea
I'd rather float in the ocean
What are you trying to be?
I guess that I'll never know
That is if you ever find me
Wearing a sweater and khakis
A buried pot in the garden
My spirit lives on it's own
My body swims in the snow
Sell your emotional real estate
The house is a blithe, fetch a low price
How many years until you feel okay?
You'll see in time I'm too hard to find
I have found my cloud nine for the wind and alpine
I am somewhere yearning and my cave is waiting
So I won't sink in the sea
I'd rather float in the ocean
What are you trying to be?
I guess that I'll never know
That is if you ever find me
Wearing a sweater and khakis
A buried pot in the garden
My spirit lives on it's own
My body swims in the snow
Sell your emotional real estate
The house is a blithe, fetch a low price
How many years until you feel okay?
You'll see in time I'm too hard to find
Stay well and let go I'll swim in the snow
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the saturated mirror
05:33
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Derek had a demon that he fought for a long time
If you think he's safe then you see him in the wrong light
Pour some gasoline on his bed, bet he'll burn great
Try to pull the gun from his head but it's too late
Golden, glistening, like you'll tend to find
Me, holding the saturated mirror, mysterious and blind
Dylan has a band and he jammed all the damn day
Danny bought a brand new board so he can skate
David has unanswered questions that he can't shake
Sara has a lot of cool friends but she won't hate on me
Golden, glistening, like you'll tend to find
Me, holding the saturated mirror, mysterious and blind
Cold heart, warm hands
Yeah you can't stay
It works both ways
Warm/cold heart
Derek fought a battle he will lose for the last time
He knew that he would fail from the start but he sure tried
A demon's hard to kill when she fights with her blue eyes
Hides behind a mask, can't dance, but she sure can lie
Golden, glistening, like you'll tend to find
Me, holding the saturated mirror, I'm breaking it this time
Golden, glistening, like you'll tend to find
Me, holding the saturated mirror, mysterious and blind
Cold heart, warm hands
Yeah you can't stay
It works both ways
Warm/cold heart
Derek was conditioned but he broke out of the paradigm
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And I tried so hard to break into your heart
To find some evidence to ease my restless head
I'm a pessimist
I give up cause I can't adjust
And I prayed for so long that you'd find a ride home
I miss my level head, the comfort of my bed, and everything you said:
I'm fucking over it.
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cuddledrug Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Rock band turned vehicle for advocacy.
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