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Acoustic Nala
05:37
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It’s too late to comprehend
Everything you’ve done
Now it’s the end
It’s too late
Too late to find
That you were on my mind
And nothing else was right
It’s too late to give me stress
Even though you’ve tried and done your best
I know you’ve been with other guys
A million and one times
I don’t care and it’s alright
Please tell me why you broke me
And you left me in the dark without a light
You had my heart
And you choked me
You kept me running back but not this time
But not this time
But not this time
But not this time
But not this time
You would never let me breathe
You tied me down and forced me to believe
And yet I’d wait for you to say
That everything’s okay
Hell I had to anyway
I admit that I was wrong
Please understand this happens to us all
And now that all is said and done
It’s been real and it’s been fun
I’m not sorry that you’re gone
Please tell me why you broke me
And you left me in the dark without a light
A part of me will always be with you
You haunt me
In your dreams
On darkest nights
On darkest nights
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Premonitions
02:20
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I saw sunshine
But I knew it can't be true
I saw sunshine
But I knew it wasn't daylight
Blame it on yourself instead of everyone
Blame it on yourself instead of everyone else
I saw clouds
And everything else around
And I saw my parents' graves
Reminding me that someday they will leave me here at home
Reminding me painfully that I will someday be alone
Alone
But not yet
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3. |
The Lavender Room
01:32
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Goddamn these feelings
There's this one little spot in my chest where I can feel my heart beating
There was a time when it beat for you
But the red of life has been removed
And There was a time when it beat for you
Your curly hair and your attitude
Your curly hair and your attitude
Push me up against the wall
Give me anything at all
One more chance
Or one more kiss upon my cold and blistered lips
Push me up against the wall
Give me anything at all
One more chance or one more kiss
Your love was like an acid trip
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4. |
Carpathia
07:00
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I checked my feelings at the door when I met you
But we were nothing more than scattered love notes
Pen and paper
And I changed what I once knew
I did it all for you
And I never made it through
With my stupid love songs
Now there's nothing left to do
I can't change who I once was
My words will never make it through
Your skull it hard and that's because the world is not your friend
And neither now is anyone
And everything will burn
The flames will touch your skin
It's just what you deserve
So let the fire in
Tell me it burns
Say it burns
Say it burns like my stupid love songs
Just give me one good thought to have
I started first but finished last
I cast her bones into the sea
Good riddance, rest in peace
There's no where safe or left to hide
The whole damn world is after me
You can't burn if you are drowning
You can't drown if you can't breathe
And I remember and I believe
I still remember
Rest in peace
Now there's nothing left to do
I can't change who I once was
My words will never make it through
Your skull it hard and that's because the world is not your friend
And neither now is anyone
Now there's nothing left to do
I can't change who I once was
My words will never make it through
Your skull it hard and that's because the world is not your friend
That's why I changed who I once was
The ship is sinking underneath
Carpathia is lost
"We've ruined everything given to us and now it's gone"
"I've been sitting around"
But this is my cloud
Carpathia
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5. |
The Combat Song
05:26
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Well I climbed so high
But I fell so far
It was worth it
It was worth it
And I danced so fast
That I broke my ass
It was worth it
It was worth it
And I trusted all my friends
And you were my best friend
Outside my bedroom window the snowflakes fall
I remember when you told me we'd catch them all.
Each snowflake like a dream lost in a sea of white
It won't mean anything
Everything is lost in flames
There's nothing left for us to be
Your promises mean nothing to me
You're just a bad old scar or a ship lost at sea
I won't remember you or what we achieved
I keep my hands in my pockets and my heart on my sleeve
I'm not ready for you to come around
And your not ready to burn to the ground
You tried to say what you really meant to say
But all it did was to help me run away
I can't escape my fate
Now I'm seeing this so clearly
You never loved me
Lesson learned
Outside my bedroom window the snowflakes melt
I remember all the times that you gave me hell
You took everything, everything and kept it to yourself
So much for "Romeo and Juliet" when I'm with someone else
It gives you hell
Your promises mean nothing to me
You're just a bad old scar or a ship lost at sea
I won't remember you or what we achieved
I keep my hands in my pockets and my heart on my sleeve
I'm not ready for you to come around
And your not ready to burn to the ground
You tried to say what you really meant to say
But all it did was to help me run away
I can't escape my fate
Now I'm seeing this so clearly
You never loved me
Lesson learned
"And then the city fell from sight
I swear it never shined so bright
And everybody cried
We all cried"
But it was worth it for the last time...
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6. |
Stone's Throw Goodbye
03:20
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I heard you crying last night
But there's nothing I can do
Your memories of your love life
Have left you scarred and bruised
The screaming gets louder
From that place inside your head
So your drown it out with pillows
But it never works
So you decide to try the pills instead
I had a preschool crush from the moment that I met you
The next couple days I just couldn't forget you
Acting like a little girl
Little boy you stole my world
And ran just like the champ you know you are
But then you threw it in my face
The thoughts I had I can't erase
Twisted tumbled cracked and burned
Like a ship that's overturned
But then you threw it in my face
The thoughts I had I can't erase
Twisted tumbled cracked and burned
Like a ship that's overturned
So am I used?
My heart abused?
Or am I yours behind closed doors?
Don't let her know that you were with me.
Don't tell me she's your destiny
I heard you crying last night
But there's nothing I can do
Your memories of your love life
Have left you scarred and bruised
The screaming gets louder
From that place inside your head
So your drown it out with pillows
But it never works
So you decide to try the pills instead
So am I used?
My heart abused?
Or am I yours behind closed doors?
Don't let her know that you were with me.
Don't tell me she's your destiny
I have to wonder if I'm wrong to wish you're better all along
The stress of life we can't reverse
It's like our secret private curse
I have to wonder if I'm wrong to wish you're mine all along
Too look at you with hopeful eyes
This is my stone's throw goodbye
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7. |
Saving Second Base
03:57
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I remember when you told me you were dying inside
And I couldn't stop the passing thoughts
From coming down and raining on my mind
And then I saw you
You were sitting by yourself
Diagnosis put you in a private hell
I remember when you told me you were dying inside
And I couldn't stop the passing thoughts
From coming down and raining on my mind
And then I saw you
You were lying in your bed
And you were crying
"Derek, I am not ending up dead
At least not yet'
I could swear
Just look at you now
I'm glad you're okay
Life seems brighter than the other day
Just look at you now
Our hard work paid
And today's a new day
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cuddledrug Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Rock band turned vehicle for advocacy.
www.cuddledrug.com
Love everyone.
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